M dreaming again!!!....AN INNOCUOUS SIN?

It’s like I have been given a life, anew! Yeah, it might seem an exaggeration for some but for me it’s as real as life. Sometimes it’s as if we are leading a life with closed eyes and only when we come close to getting detached from life do we realize its existence. Same is what I experienced. It’s just that now am a little more scared or probably a lot more scared than I used to be. Ephemeral …yes this would be the right word to describe how all feels now. All… yes all. Seems, like I had been dazed by the misty contours of life. My palette seems to have been forcefully extended to include some real colors. Colors that might not be amusing and revitalizing for the sight but their presence scream their existence. Can there be much more to this endless canvas? Yet, death seems to end it all and it feels soo close. I don’t know why I am the way I am. I still want to get mingled up in these colors, appreciate them, dance with the sporadic hues and tunes of tide and weave a web of DREAMS! Yes, all new dreams as fresh as dew! Love, live and live and love and caress and kiss and touch and feel the essence of the mysteries of this inexplicable mystery – Life! My teacher helped us to a course in life…but today all seems lost…I want a new course, a new syllabus. My insides yell out at my outsides and both confide things into one another. Simple, rustic and plain yet, incomprehensible! I feel like a flowing gale that touches and feels so many atoms but still remains intact in its individuality, unrelenting as always with a firm reticence. Resolve or let it concoct new forms…let things last the way they are or change their course, laugh at the incompatibilities, deride the unknown and blush at every pretence of love… But LIVE! Or change it all and relive, the way YOU want to! In this case you will have to be a challenger, full of burgeoning youthfulness and ignorance. Or be a component of this wide universe that expects nothing and gives away for an unreasonable cause! Compounded with such thoughts my mind wanders into new waters and this time I believe I have landed at a new destination. Can there be hope of mutating my obstinate genes…NEVER!